Sunday, October 08, 2006
looking through a glass onion
Current mood: contemplative
i've been disecting my life like an onion, and accoringly the sting has brought me to tears, as well as those around me.
i've been asking many questions, some to God, to myself, to my husband, and to the air, which has been just as ready to give me answers as anyone else.
mainly i want to know that there is hope... for me, for my family, for the the world...
it seems to fade more and more everyday...
maybe i just need a break, maybe if i had the chance to step completely out of my current reality, and got to look in on a whole different group of people, and way of life, their thought processes, their world views... maybe things might make more sense...
i have always believed, somewhere deep down that there was a God, that was ultimately good... somewhere in life i started to question this though, when more and more the hurt and suffering of countless undeserving people seemed to pile up so high, higher than any tower of babel, higher than any skyscraper, even higher then the sattelites' orbit...
how could a good God allow such things? i would ask
the more i search out the story of the fall, the more it starts to make sense, and the pain and chaos of the world, to me serve as proof that God is good, and ultimately right above all...
how else would we expect the world that is in direct disobedience of Him to look?
healthy?
happy?
sustainable?
peaceful?
sure the devil may have a plan to mimick God's goodness, but could he ever really acheive it? God's goodness? or only a base understanding of selfishly motivated good?
isn't that the current trend?
'what would we do without cars and airplanes?' "what about cell phones and the internet?
are these not 'good' inventions?" what about the medical industry and all the discoveries of science? are those not good?
do we think these things ungodly in and of themselves, or merely the way we go about getting them? countless wars over pollution causing oil, slave labor factories that take advantage of the impoverished and helpless societies...
surely there is someone(s) making good of all this destruction? else why would it go on?
isn't evil merely the going after of a good thing in a 'wrong' or hurtful way?
God made sex, and it is good right?.. but rape is not good... why?
theft? most likely done to feed or otherwise 'aid' someone -lest it's drug addiction, then there is another false pretense of what good actually is... but is thevery wrong if it is 'helping' someone? what about who it hurts?
what about all the hurts caused by our supposed good
medical practices, that either fix one thing and harm another, or are only available to the wealthy and 'privaledged' in society. or all the 'research' done on defensseless creatures?
how do you think they find out about the side effects?
and when and where do we draw the line? when is one man's enrichment no longer worth the oppression of another?
i do not doubt God's goodnesss in these questions, i doubt man's ability to solve their own self-created problems...
but the question for many is becoming 'what then do we make of this life?
surely we do not give up trying?'
surely the right side is worth fighting on, whether or not we see the full victory in this lifetime...
12:43 PM
looking through a glass onion
Current mood: contemplative
i've been disecting my life like an onion, and accoringly the sting has brought me to tears, as well as those around me.
i've been asking many questions, some to God, to myself, to my husband, and to the air, which has been just as ready to give me answers as anyone else.
mainly i want to know that there is hope... for me, for my family, for the the world...
it seems to fade more and more everyday...
maybe i just need a break, maybe if i had the chance to step completely out of my current reality, and got to look in on a whole different group of people, and way of life, their thought processes, their world views... maybe things might make more sense...
i have always believed, somewhere deep down that there was a God, that was ultimately good... somewhere in life i started to question this though, when more and more the hurt and suffering of countless undeserving people seemed to pile up so high, higher than any tower of babel, higher than any skyscraper, even higher then the sattelites' orbit...
how could a good God allow such things? i would ask
the more i search out the story of the fall, the more it starts to make sense, and the pain and chaos of the world, to me serve as proof that God is good, and ultimately right above all...
how else would we expect the world that is in direct disobedience of Him to look?
healthy?
happy?
sustainable?
peaceful?
sure the devil may have a plan to mimick God's goodness, but could he ever really acheive it? God's goodness? or only a base understanding of selfishly motivated good?
isn't that the current trend?
'what would we do without cars and airplanes?' "what about cell phones and the internet?
are these not 'good' inventions?" what about the medical industry and all the discoveries of science? are those not good?
do we think these things ungodly in and of themselves, or merely the way we go about getting them? countless wars over pollution causing oil, slave labor factories that take advantage of the impoverished and helpless societies...
surely there is someone(s) making good of all this destruction? else why would it go on?
isn't evil merely the going after of a good thing in a 'wrong' or hurtful way?
God made sex, and it is good right?.. but rape is not good... why?
theft? most likely done to feed or otherwise 'aid' someone -lest it's drug addiction, then there is another false pretense of what good actually is... but is thevery wrong if it is 'helping' someone? what about who it hurts?
what about all the hurts caused by our supposed good
medical practices, that either fix one thing and harm another, or are only available to the wealthy and 'privaledged' in society. or all the 'research' done on defensseless creatures?
how do you think they find out about the side effects?
and when and where do we draw the line? when is one man's enrichment no longer worth the oppression of another?
i do not doubt God's goodnesss in these questions, i doubt man's ability to solve their own self-created problems...
but the question for many is becoming 'what then do we make of this life?
surely we do not give up trying?'
surely the right side is worth fighting on, whether or not we see the full victory in this lifetime...
12:43 PM
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